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My Closest Friends

She has my DNA, though we didn’t look alike. As time went by, we never had separate for more than a week. She’s my sister, my best friends-my very good best friends. She’s the only one that helped me when I had problems, I mean other people helped me too, but she’s the only one that actually really helped me, make me feel much better.
People had told me that I’m weird, complicated, hard, unpredictable, all that. I think it’s hard for other people to help me when I had problems, even thought I called them my best friends. Me and my sister fight, have different opinions thoughts, and feeling, very, very different. Then at some point we have our similarities. Suddenly we think the same, act the same, feel, and taste the same. She knows when I have problems, even thought how hard I’ve try to hide it.
Her eyes look at me with love, but she told me she hates me more that anything I could possibly think of, but I know if she’s gone, I can feel my life have no meaning maybe, it’ll gone with her!!

** I wrote this and I wonder why I called those people that can’t even help me, best friends??!!
I’ve been thinking for a week, well maybe less
I came up that I actually a loner (sad I know… o well) and I talked to them because I didn’t want to be a loner. I found out that I hung out with them because I want to get someone attention only!

Then I realize I have no best friends, well I do, but not these people around me at school (arghhh, hard to say!! I’m not good at this stuff!!) . Well, some at school but not the one that I used to hang out the most! They are not my best friends, I do feel a bit not myself around them, and I feel not right. So, (this is a bit mean sorry FRIENDS ) I don’t mind to be a loner in school, cause I actually never alone! There is someone that actually really, really likes me and I like that someone too!! I might can’t this someone, but I know I can feel this person and this person can feel me!! Maybe see me!!

As I was surfing the internet I saw a really scary picture but in history catagory .So, I read it and it was pretty intersting I want to share with everybody, you can see it in  here

“Hanged with a leather cord and cast into a Danish bog 2,300 years ago, Tollund Man was probably a sacrifice. Like other bodies found preserved in Europe’s peat bogs, he poses haunting questions.”

 well frozen body of a baby woolly mammoth discovered last year in Arctic Russia. It was really small and it still a one body, not apart or anything. Except its tail and its shaggy coat.

The remarkably preserved mammoth calf is named Lyuba-after the wife of the hunter who found this mammoth.

The poeple that found it believe it died when the mammoth was about 40,000 months old.Want to know more about it click here

It's Relient K-be my escape

HE made us but we still think this isn't what we want, and we forget about him...n we want to find ways to be what we want.. we sined...and forget if we make him our eveyrthing..we can get ANYTHING that we want..

so there's 2..the original one and the skit kinda one...it's better if you watch the skit one 1st...

This the skit one.. 

The original one

My new teacher never tell us anything that can be put in our blog, but FINALLY I got this really cool idea, same like Savannah’s blog, I will put my artistic stuff…well I took a picture of it, I didn’t do it in my computer, so, maybe it will be a bit different.
Ooo well…

I also will out this cool songs. I really like it!
O… new stuff will coming…like I’ll put some of my favorite books…so..Yeah…
But at the moment here’s another poem…Hehe

I CAN DANCE

Up and down
Left or right?
Doesn’t matter
Just move

As the music sound far away..
Maybe silence I can say
Yet I feel the music right next to my ears
Jump, crazy
Crazy, jump…
Laugh, smile
WOW!!

My hair fly in the air
My eyes close so tight
Feeling the move I made

Don’t know where the move come from
Don’t know how I got it
Don’t know when I started
Last things I know
I’M DANCING!!

In front of the glassy mirror
Look how cool I move
Yet slowly I close my eyes
But I’m still standing in front the mirror?
Hmm…

Leaving the reality
Show the joy
Let it out your chest
YEAH

Just dance
Why?
Casue I want
DANCE?
Casue I can

So 1st thing 1st… CHANGE POWER!!
Well, there are a lot of poems and scary stories in here. I hate scary stuff actually and maybe hard to believe but, people thought Ataya is a happy, stupid girl. Well, most of the time yes I act happy and all. Smile, laughed…basically stupid things but happy with it HAHA!! (even though people laugh at me =D)
BUT well this is mostly how I felt inside, pretty hurts huh…
But my Lord just take care off all the hurts, so… Let’s be happy!!

So, I’ll stop with the scary stuff and try to have happier, bright thing…
Well, I still going to put some scary, lonely, EMO kind of stuff, but happy at the sane time.
In the name of God, maybe I’ll put some songs video or maybe books that are amazingly I like!!
That’s also if I’m not that lazy to walk to my computer, or my computer not that SLOWWWWWW!!

But hey..The point is there’s going to be some changes in here!! OKKKK!!
BYE xx

P.S I don’t know why my 1st post ever is right under my new post, which is this one. But o well…hehe

What a tiring day! I just done with my school drama performance, yet I still have my school Fine Art travel that have to be done and I have some bad day for the past few weeks!

Then I made this poem while I was so sad and just really need someone to help me so bad( I went a bit crazy that time)

So, this poem really what I feel at the moment, well not really.

It have to title cause it will be so long title =P

Alone
In a black space
Wonder and wonder

Alone, wonder
In the darkness
Lightning come
Run to touch my heart
Tears of hurts
Run from my eyes

Alone, wonder, hurts
Haunting along the way
As I think
The happiness
Just passed by

Alone, wonder, hurts

Alone…I think
Share it to myself
Find the mistake myself

Wonder…the words they said
Talk until they die
Try making me be prefect
Those useful words

Hurts…as I remember it
Their words
Out from their mouth like rubbish
Talk, yet never show it

I saw, I heard, I feel
Yell, mad, anger, made up stories
Just to get what they want from me
Don’t care how bad my day was
I notice they don’t know me
Even a little thing about me

Now my heart
Just a heart full of hate
Waiting to rise again
A vivid smile
Come and rise me up
I pray, hope, wish
Someone with a charm smile
Joyful heart yet understandable
Come and show me the way
Open their blind heart
Change the sadness
Bring the joy
To the house of four

LOVE

It gave you peace
But pain real deep inside

Put a smile on my face
Yet it hard to get

Hug him close to me
But time took it away

Don’t want it to be over
It has to go soon or later